white stripe

oh....i have yet another new doo. not so much
in the cut, just trying to grow my hair out.
but the color - i LOVE it. i have really fine,
thin hair. i work really hard to get it to look
like it isn't so fine and thin. so brandy, put
in deep brown low lites, some dark blonde
and a sassy little white stripe in the front.

i may never go blonde again! i have always
stayed blonde because i fear i look like my
mom if my hair is darker. don't get me wrong.
mom is very cute, however as a daughter, i
don't want to be my mom. but i like the dark.

happy wednesday!

bless my soul *[happy feet]

if you haven't already...go catch happy feet.
sweet sweet story and bitchin music.
elvis, stevie wonder, queen....and pink's
rendition of [tell me something good!]

go see it - it doesn't make just your
feet happy.

oh...and don't eat yellow snow.

nola on my mind

bourbon street~new orleans, la november 2006

it has been 2 weeks since i got back from my
working vacation in new orleans. and a vacation
it was. i haven't worked or laughed so hard in
so long. this simple journey re-lit my wick. 14 months
have gone by since katrina's force devasted
southern states.

14 months after katrina~9th ward new orleans, la

the lives of many will never
be the same, they have years of reconstruction.
years of looking for old friends, records, family
and self worth.

we worked through st. gabriels of the archangel.
we worked with several parish family's needing help.
miz lula - braving breast cancer on a 5 year treatment
plan. pete and sonia - a retired couple who now have
had to start all over. frieda - a single mom of three
teenage boys. we gutted her house. so paralyzed
by the storm. she hadn't even gone in the house
to look for posessions. when we entered the house
it was left as the water and storm had left it. furniture
piercing the walls. old fish tanks still holding flood
water and memories flowing throughout. as we
walked through our labor, house stripped down to the
bare studs, mildew creeping up the wires and wood. a
back closet held what we saved for frieda to look
through. precious memories left equaled 2 small boxes.

2 small boxes.~9th ward new orleans, la

i don't want to preach or get on my horse about our
government. but what i do want to express the need
for help. need for assistance. need for hands.
they need hands, hands that will lift, move, hang,
sweep and hold. they need hands to hug, hands
to extend towards them.

you want to help. contact the red cross, contact
a local church. its not just new orleans, its the south.
if you can help, please take the time to do it.


lower9th along the levee~new orleans, la
what worldly posessions would you put in 2 small boxes?

[great things are done by a series of small things
brought together. ~vincent van gogh]

bless my soul *[hands]

[ twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by
the things you didn't do than by they ones you did do.
so throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor.
catch the tradewinds in your sails. explore. dream. discover.
~mark twain ]

oh...look at my new journal. a pal dropped it in
my mailbox yesterday along with a check for some
work i had done for her. i love it. it looks like my
doodles.

hands....in 9 days i am heading to new orleans to work at
st. gabriel's parish. this is the 2nd team from my
church that is going down. 14 months after
katerina and most are still displaced, living in trailers,
other states or never left there destroyed homes.
we will be gutting, cleaning, dry-walling and working
in the yards - hoping that we bring them closer to
home.

the journal came at the most appropriate time. she
will be traveling with me on this journey. i hope
to fill her pages with whatever comes my way.

i have waited for one of these trips to bless me
and now it is finally here. i am excited, anxious,
scared and thrilled all at once. bryce is behind
me on this, so that helps so much. the kids seemed
proud of their momma....that just feels good.

if you have any ideas on simple supplies i can take
to use in my journal, let me know. i am all ears!

happy wednesday!

bless my soul *[meme]

this comes from miz sarah , you can find her here!

When was the last time you shaved? i work from home...2days ago and that is rare
What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.? sipping a capp in front of the computer
What were you doing 15 minutes ago? printing a job
Your prom night? queen - stop laughing i'm serious!
Do you have any famous ancestors? surely
taken out a loan to pay for school? who hasn't
Last thing received in the mail? a very sweet note
How many different beverages have you drunk today? coffee, diet and water
Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine? only if i have too
Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? the beach if only i could find one
What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? wisdom teeth
What is out your back door? deck and yard
Any plans for Friday night? help heather move
Do you like what the ocean does to your hair? who doesn't love the smell of fishy salt water
you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas? yum!
Have you ever been to a planetarium? sure...nmhs!
Do you re-use towels after you shower? if you did 20 loads of wash a week you would too!
Some things you are excited about? a clean studio with wide open space on the art spot
What is your favorite flavor of JELLO? lime
Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? Nope
Where do you keep your change? a green wine bottle
When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?tuesday i group of jr. high students
What kind of winter coat do you have?a fuzzy black poodle coat
What was the weather like on your graduation day?warm and sunny
Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?closed...i have kids

8 lasts --8.] last kiss:ummmm....2 days ago, we are a sad sad couple
7.] last beverage: diet
6.] last movie watched: monster in law
5.] last phone call: El Conquestador
4.] last cd played: nicks mix
3.] last "i love you": ditto #8
2.] last time you cried: this morning
1.] last alcoholic drink: 2 nites ago...coors lite

6 have you evers --6.] have you ever dated someone twice: wayne my first love
5.] have you ever been cheated on: i am a woman, of course
4.] have you ever kissed someone: 3 kids, uh yes
3.] have you ever kissed someone you regret: do i need to count?
2.] have you ever been depressed: sure i am a scorpio
1.] have you ever been drunk and thrown up: binge drinking is bad

6 things you've done today
1.] filed
2.] swept
3.] cleaned
4.] printed
5.] update a website
6.] smiled

3 favorite colors --1.] Orange2.] green3.] Blue

2 things you want to do before you die
1.] Visit Ireland/Scotland...ditto sarah!
2.] have a successful artistic eclectic business and live above it in a loft


happy friday!

need the info...

my husband resigned last nite, as head tennis coach. you
can read about it here that is how i found out. men...
what the hell is he thinking, not at least telling me he
was going to do this. seriously, don't get me wrong, he
has enough on his plate as a.d. but he should have told
me. this is my everyday. i am sure he was thinking of
me and the kids, when he made the decision. but just
out of humor and a bit of spite. i called the secretaries
and told them to leave a note on his desk saying this -
[your wife has taken a job in colorado. she will call you
when she gets there, she will discuss it then...]

he is not going to want to come home for dinner!

oh sweet wednesday!

practicality vs. the saab

practical [prak'ti kel] adj. 1 of or obtained
through practie or action. 2 useful 3 concerned
with the application of knowledge to useful
ends [practical science] 4 dealing realistically
and sensibly with everyday matters 5 that
is so in pratice, if not in theory, law, etc. -
practicality [-kal'e te],pl.
-ties, n.

in 1994 a saab 900se sticker price
was approximately $26k

2 years ago we paid $4500 cash + $6k repairs
and maintenance

cute, yes, practical, NO!
practical joke, maybe~

oh happy day....

running man

for the love of betty...check out
this video

bless my soul *[grey day]

oh happy grey day!

bless my soul *[miz c]

[What are little girls made of,
made of?
What are little girls made of?
Sugar and spice
And all things nice,
That's what little girls
are made of.]

oh miz c....you poor poor girl. grandma is
already planning frilly pink dresses, so
hideous they will be. but don't you worry
aunti k and cheri' will make sure you get
some funky baby t's and leggins. we have
plenty of great shops bookmarked.

welcome to our crazy world little girl...
we can't wait to watch you grow.

bless my soul *[delilah]

sweet 16 miz d....[16 weeks]

[Buy a pup and your money will buy
love unflinching.] -Rudyard Kipling

bless my soul *[peace]

remember today the lives that are lost, those
of innocent citizens who didn't see it coming.
the forces who protect everyday and through
the night as we sleep peacefully in our homes.
those who give up time with their own families,
holidays, birthdays and anniversaries. the
volunteers who left there homes to take grayhound
buses to ground zero to find a way to help those
in need. the ones who drove supplies into the
devastation. the loved ones left behind.

regardless of political views, whose side you
tend to migrate towards, political party
or the faith you choose.

remember.....

peace

happy birthday to you....

then out of the water! sing loud while you dry!
sing loud, "i am lucky!"sing loud, "i am i!"
if you'd never been born, then you might be an isn't!
an isn't has nofun at all. no he disn't.
he never has birthdays, andthat isn't pleasant.
you have to be born,or you don't get a present.
a present! a-ha!now what kind shall i give....?
why, the kind you remember as long as you live......

[from dr. seuss, happy birthday to you]

happy birthday g.....you are such a gift.
sense of humor, kind, loyal and sensitive.
you know how to make mom laugh and
lord knows i need to laugh. 15 years have
flown by....it is hard to believe that 15 years
ago, you laid in a hospital for 3 days before
you idiot parents could agree on your name.
but what else is new...not much has changed
now has it!

g....uberboy!

miz delilah *[she's a green dog!]

miz delilah is entering her 15th week.
she is a blast to have around the house!
with the exception of bitey face on my
ankles when i take her out to pee.
damn she has some sharp teeth.

today she is modeling her funky
[mutt high life] bandana from
the green dog co. the proprietor
of this shop of happy is mary
kathryn and she donates a percentage
to great charities everytime you get
the shopping bug....and your pooch
will love you for it!


{The best way to get a puppy is to beg for
a baby brother — and they'll settle for a
puppy every time. -Winston Pendleton

bless my soul *[blessed]

{before me lies the edge of the world. i am on my way there running
~from a papago song

blessed is watching her write a number on the palm of
her hand and coming in 8 seconds ahead of her goal.

happy thursday...blessed

bless my soul *[parking]

{no parking...wabash college

parking...oh parking. your date, thinking they
were so damn smooth. driving out of town,
windows down bugs smacking the front windows.
pulling down a dark country road, the rush of
adrenaline surging from the anticipation of not
only the makeout session but running the risk
of big joe sheriff coming upon the stopped car.
the car was a red ss nova, cassette player jacked
up just a bit....goosebumps still tingle my skin
when i see an old nova

bless my soul *[road taken]

road taken
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

delilah and i walk along this path almost daily.
wabash college has such a beautiful campus
we live just a couple blocks away. this is my
favorite time of year. i can listen to the football
game while sitting on our deck, the chanting
rituals ring throughout our open windows late
at night...and music, lots of music.

bless my soul *[new doo]

spt_newdoo
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

at last....i dig my new hairdoo! short choppy bangs,
little fauxhawk. not liking this chicken neck of mine.
my god! i turned 40 and i suddenly have an old
lady neck. but i have a funky new cut/color so that
is what i am concentrating on today!

happy thursday!

bless my soul *[hollywood]

hollywood_sm
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

delilah mugs for a tinseltown headshot

bless my soul *[vintage]

vintagegrill
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

i heart classic cars

i would really dig a ford falcon, old chevy truck like grandpa
jim's or a vw bus!

10 things i am doing when not creating

happy monday all!
i woke up this morning thinking i had
one more day on the weekend...bummer!

i found this idea on this chick's site....and
thought it would be interesting to see what
is keeping me from my beloved creating

here are the ten things that keep me from
my art...

1. a.d.d.

2. my messy desk [ i am always behind on work,
invoicing, preliminary ideas, writing job quotes,
tax time is just around the corner and i have
not filled out the books...ugh!

3. chasing our new pup around making sure
there are no accidents

4. two walks a day with delilah

5.keeping the house picked up

6.well meaning family and friends who stop by unannounced

7.annoying marketers calling, f.o.p. who call at least twice a
week looking for donations

8.laundry

9.school activities

10. me not being able to say no to others!

and after all this i most generally need a nap around 3-5pm.
any ideas on how to get on a schedule, leave them here!
i am open to almost anything!

bless my soul *[hummmmm]

hummingbird feeder
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

parents back yard. i dig the red and green

bless my soul *[peace]

outdoor
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

in my parents yard....pretty and peacful

bless my soul

spt_one
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

i am going to be a copycat [www.madflydesign.com/blog] and try to post new photos daily or weekly. just depending on my mood and those will be titled BLESS MY SOUL. i need daily reminders of my blessings simply because, i am noticing what a crappy attitude i have about life in general at the moment. i need to wake up and
cut it out!

yesterday i sat in the bathroom taking numerous spt's and needless
to say out of about 20 images, i got 4-5 decent ones! i also realized
that if i don't stop eating like a horse, well i am going to be a horse!
after my physical today, i am hitting w.w. online.

here's to shedding a few pounds!

happy friday!

oh and if you want to see a few other spt....you can
go here - http://www.flickr.com/photos/indigosoul/

bless my soul

wabash early morn
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

morning walk on wabash campus

changes in latitude

changes in latitude
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

some days it's all relative

...happy wednesday!

new address

i have moved my blog to my website. hopefully i will have
that up and started in a week or two. if you have my blog
as a link on your site...here is the new address.

http://www.campindigosoul.com/blog.html

thanks!

studio friday [sidekicks]

sidekicks....oh that would be miz delilah.
she is our new pooch. she's an airedale.
we picked her up last sunday in illinois.
she has been such a delight. she sleeps
in the studio during the day, and we go
out to play in the yard several times a
day.

she's a keeper!

joe the ironman

[coriopsis in the garden]

today i was blessed when i was able to watch
a dear friend cross the finish line at the Lake
Placid Ironman Race. Joe Labbe....YOU ARE
AN IRONMAN! Joe is one of those all-around
great guys....faithful, intelligent, athletic, kind,
and a great son. his twin jim is the same way.
we have known them most of our lives, we spend
christmas eve together every year. my parents
are dear friends with there parents. Today
i watch joe, on-line, finish his ironman.

i can't even explain the emotions that i felt. but
mostly there was pride. pride for knowing him,
pride for the hard work he has put in to train.
and pride that this man graces my life, my husband's
life and my kids lives.

he is an IRONMAN!

[ the reason for any journey is this:
in a journey discoveries are made. ]
~kobe yamada

hey there delilah...

first bryce suggested the name, then i heard
this song , cheri gave her seal of approval and
that was that. so here is our
newest family member...miz delilah.

we dig her!

simply awake

[surfin' on main]

it has been a long month for
many reasons, but through
the muck, i have also been
able to dig myself out and
feel renewed. i was able
to do that because i have
such a strong circle of family
and friends. even when i
get really down, scared and
full of fear. i do know that
it will be okay - my biggest
problem is that i DWELL on
too much negative. you know
the glass half empty. even
though i really know that it is
half full. this week i found
this on miz mawns site....
simple awakenings. yesterday
i was blessed when i was able
to sit down and talk with someone
that i truly admire as an artist.

she was kind, generous, and funny.
she put me at ease and when she
asked me "where do you want your
career to go" a light went off. just
a gentle simple nudge....as she says
[swoon!] so here are my simple
awakenings - blessings - loves....

...the twisted trio now living closer

...happy times with this chickie

...watching clancy run the bases,
guarding first & winning first round

...being a [creative] - sorry tom!

...preparing for our new pup

...cold watermelon

...wilted lettuce salad - fresh from our garden

...healthy - smart - funny kids

....b

...a cold yuengling - yummie!


happy thursday!

anticipation!

["Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot
about little puppies."-- Gene Hill]

the new addition to our family will arrive in 3 more
weeks! she is one of the four airedale pups above.
she comes from a litter of eight....4 girls/4 boys.
her daddy is ernie - ch. stoneridge wings of airetyme
and mom is holly - orrick of stoneridge. both very
handsome pups! i think this just may be the big event
of the summer! we will be heading to the chicago area
the weekend of our anniversary to possibly see a game,
visit the biggest show on earth [IKEA] and bring her home.
anything to get out of this lazy little town.

stay tuned...

["The average dog is a nicer person than the
average person."--Andrew A. Rooney]

need the zen

{lilac bush}

hello all...our house has been
so busy with getting our summer
yard presentable. yesterday
my mom and dad stopped by
with a lilac tree to plant. lilacs
are one of my favorites. if you
noticed the stake is a pitchfork.
that is an official trademark of
my dad. he uses whatever works.
i love it! very creative, resourseful
inexpensive and funky. it's going
to stay!

you would think summer would be
appealing, but this is when my kids
take off for the summer to stay with
their dad. as much as they drive me
nuts with the arguing, back talk and
always wanted to be going somewhere-
i miss them and wish that they were
with me.

i hate to even ask this...but i am going
to take a break for a bit. i am about to
enter a very sad and scary phase in life
and i feel that i need to concentrate on
some important life issues. so please
keep me and my family in your thoughts, prayers
etc. i have learned over the past year -that
this group of women are such a beautiful
force and that is why i ask. and don't
worry, no one is sick. we just need
positive thoughts, a little zen.

so i will be checking in occassionally and
emails are good. just don't want anyone
to think that i have left.

so more important today, than ever....my blessings

heather for her laughter, knowledge and strength. i simply don't
know what i would do without her.

cheri...raw loyalty and fiery spirit
gabe...huge smile and massive heart
clancy...beautiful voice, and new dance [the dip]
bryce...support and and levelhead
lynnie....kind spirit
elconquestador....he will read this and send me some snotty
email and make me laugh

my newly tilled/planted garden and green green lawn
sitting out in front of my outdoor fire...relaxed

happy summer to all and love the ones you are with!

the menagerie

we have new family members! gabe has adopted

an iguana from depauws lab and clancy has thrown
precaution to the wind and invested in some
very colorful fish. i am digging the orange rocks!
she found a very arsty aquarium at petsmart and
it goes perfectly in her very colorful room! i just
hope the fish last. she named them bob and fred
and gabe's iguana is bowser for now. we seem
to always have a hard time sticking with names.

my kids love animals and bryce just can't figure
out why we need any. but he is pretty good
about just going with the flow and besides, he
is rarely here and the kids are incharge of their
own clean up.

we will be welcoming a new pup this summer
and i am trying to put a game plan in place
before she gets here. the kids are so happy
that we are getting a dog. cheri' is just glad
that it will be a sturdier dog. she wants a great
dane when she gets out of college and has
her own place.

so with that being said - here is why my life
is so blessed...

cheri going off to chicago for her internship
our new family members
my great mother's day gifts
the sun finally finding it's way to indiana
dear friends near and far
el conquestador and the family moving to the ville
my packet of seeds waiting to hit the dirt

happy tuesday!

studio fridays [ [[ sounds]] ]

[peonies mysteriously appeared on my kitchen table]

studio sounds throughout the day and night
include...tv in the back ground, road sounds,
toilet running, keyboard [backspace is a popular
sound] telephone ringing, turning pages and
coffee slurping. as the day moves forward, you
will hear the bus stop, kids voices, sometimes
arguments, doors slamming and nightly walkers

but my favorite daily sounds are those that keep
me sane...here is what i am listening to -

jack johnson - lullabys [curious george]
ben harper - anyone of his cd's
matt costa - my sweet rose, sunshine [songs we sing]
jimmy buffett - need i say more
tom jones - its not unusual
bob marley - is this love
ray charles - [duets]
and so many more....

if you want to witness more sounds then skip your way over
here....

enjoy your weekend - take time to love the ones you love.
slow down, breath deep and live life

happy friday!

busybusybusy

long last week...i am dreaming of a
warm sandy beach. running my feet
through the rough sand - instant
pedicure. i am sure i am lazily coddling
a strong margarita...yum!

i am finally finished with my graduation orders,
and once i get my two estimates off to clients
i get to take a deep breath.

bryce is running the mini this weekend. he has
really been kicking ass on his training. i don't
know how he does it...i suck air just watching
him. gabe shot a 50 today at his golf meet.
so he hit his goal and earned back his #3 spot.
he was happy. clancy is out on the porch with a
friend and i am loving the fact that i can see my
studio floor again.

i frantically pulled it together this morning - i had
a student come and shadow me this morning. she
is only a freshman and i hope that i let her see that
the world is hers. as i talked to her about design
options, i realized that 25 years ago [are you kidding
me...25 years!] when i was entering the real world
my options seemed to be teacher, nurse and secretary.
i majored in child development. i would rather jump
off a cliff! i made it through 2 years and i think my
gpa was a 1.7. but i could play a mean game of
quarters and drink any guy under the table. however,
this is no longer true. today...3 beers and i am done.

so to round out this day of babbling i will leave you
with some funnies...i am totally being a copy cat.
miz kelly rae was kind enough to share hers
[btw - check out her paintings - i dig them]

so here they are!
1. when i was little - i could walk on my hands, forever!
i was so limber that my feet would skim the floor. today
i can't even touch my toes.

2. i have quite a sassy mouth and most people don't
realize how shy insecure i really am

3. i dream of having my own stationary/textile design business

4. i hate when i hurt someones feeling

5. i will drive past my house and around the block if steve miller
band's [jungle love] is on the radio. i can't get out until it
plays all the way through

6. i am a closet dancer [outkast - hey ya! is a favorite]

7. i start a painting and struggle to finish it - this really isn't
funny. but it is one of my querks. i think i am afraid
of the result!

8. i can pop my hips out of joint.

9. when i am sitting around with my kids...they crack me
up. i wish i thought they were as hilarious when in public.

10. i make bitchin guacamole!

happy tuesday!

ode to friday

it's friday....amen!

this week have given me a swift kick in
the ass. i am wiped out and am dreaming
of a long nap this weekend.

yesterday when i opened the mailbox, i found
a card from a friend. inside she wrote...
[ i miss your friendship]. she lives one block
from my front door. it made me cry.

i have realized over the last year, that although
i have began my freelance journey - i am not
any less busy. i think i have more on my plate
now then when i went to an office everyday.
it truly is a better busy, but i have found that
i still can't say no. i am still pulled from many
directions. and since i have began working from
home - looking back on the year - i have
distanced myself from so many people.

i was burnt out on people and all the crap that
goes along with office politics, downtown politics
blah, blah blah. we live in a very small community
and if something happens, it is spread throughout
the county very quickly. there isn't much privacy
here. few honor others personal space. when
working in our office, i went from a cubicle, to
an office and back to a cubicle. when i had the
office - the door was my favorite feature. i could
close it - when i didn't want to listen in to the
town gossip. not that i didn't sit in on plenty.
but my door became my best friend. when we
had a new employee join the group, i went back
out to an open air office...i cringed everytime i
heard something i shouldn't.

when i received the card yesterday, alot of emotions
came to the surface of my pain. my friend - has become
friends with my previous boss and i know that subconciously
i have pulled back because of this. i know that she loves
me, but they have kids the same age in the same class.
but i had talked to her at length about issues i had
both personally and professionally with my boss. nothing
serious, just occassions where i needed to vent. and
because i trust few here, i worried that their friendship
over ruled our friendship. i knew i was pulling away - and
i just couldn't stop.

i have done this with many others. i am not trying to be
unfriendly - i just needed a break from all the gossip,
and involvement. i don't want to hear things that are
none of my business. it isn't healthy for my psychy.
i hold too much - to close to my heart. and i know
it is hard for people to understand this. they feel i am
not being friendly, that i am not playing the game. but
that is just what it is - a nasty, mean spirited game.

when i opened my card...i was in the middle of writing
a letter to my family. i love my warped little cherubs and
bryce dearly and i truly love the fact that i am available to
them at most any time...but they have began taking advantage
of my presence at home and my letter is titled...
[mama is tired]. you may see me on the news as the
mom who has gone on strike. and soooooo all the babbling
has a point - kelly is tired, as stated in a previous entry

tired kelly = bitchy kelly

i am missing all my painting - i was in a good flow
i am not accomplishing any of my 2006 goals
my studio is a fat mess
i have yet to take on art class
i have got to begin saying no more...on all sides
i will nuture my soul
i must rework my organization
i will make my family read my letter
i will take better care of my physical health
i will take time to nuture my friendships.
i will work on not allowing negative forces to
intrude on my life
i will start participating in my creative groups again
and i will take the time to read, paint and create
because these are the things that keep me sane
in the crazy superficial world.

just babbling again....have a happy weekend

- k

the weigh in

after reading so many blogs talking about
spring renewal, personal worth, weight gain -
it has made me want to start fresh....yet again.

i guess that is life in a nut shell...picking up the
chard pieces of our daily lives and re-working
it when it is necessary.

if only i would take the time each day to do
what is necessary, to take steps so that i am
not continually fixing the leaks and holes
that i have created just by simply not paying
attention.

this past fall i did weight watchers and lost around
12 lbs. and it felt great. and as my 12th week came
i just decided that i needed that thursday evening to
make sure i was with my kids. there was also a
chick there who weighs you in, and everytime i
went up to be weighed, she would make a comment
about how she didn't know why i was there. it
really discouraged me. i was the smallest person
there. but when your next size up jeans need to
be greased before you put them on - then you feel
like you are big, no matter how much you weigh.

so 2 months ago i bought the new windsor pilates
with the resistant circle. okay that was all good,
it only took me 2 months of looking at it sitting in
front of the tv to decide - the hole needed to
be plugged!

so...i officially started monday. yes we must always
begin on the monday. tonight i went to the school
to do my cardio, so i weighed in. for the love of
god....why does every scale in the world weigh me
in at 10lbs more then my scale. looking at my
weight watchers booklet...i have gained back 8 of
the 12 i took off in the fall. thank you lord it wasn't
all 12, then i might have had to shoot myself [only joking].
my bathroom scales will be adjusted accordingly.

i have realized that i have gained almost 27lbs since
bryce and i got married 6 years ago. bryce on the
other hand has stayed skinny. but he doesn't eat
cheese fries and peanut m&m's either.

i have been enjoying the pilates. i love the stretching.
so i am taking my measurements and documenting them
tonight and in thirty days, i will check them again.
bye bye cheese fries!

on a creative note...i went to a new art coop opening
and even though most of the art was not to my taste...
seeing the artists and talking with them filled me with
such energy. i love going from studio to studio and listening
to each one, eyes wide open with such a love, such
creative force.

this place is a big daisy in a field of weeds. it sits
in the middle of a very itty bitty town and because
of the dedication of a few creative residents - a dream
has become.

happy to be.....

married to a blessed man who loves me even though
i am guirky and roly poly

in the middle of a big creative mess

the mommy to 3 beautiful, funny, warped, head strong cherubs

on the best street in town

asked to help out

healthy

so blessed...even though sometimes it slips my mind

contradictions

{a very messy desk}

i am always bewildered by all the contradictions
that we see daily. today while pulling out of the
cvs parking lot. i watched a young mother
riding a bike with a child cart in tow....she was
smoking a cigarette as she steered her toddler
down the street. as i smirked to myself, i realized
that i am not immune to these contradictions. i went
to cvs to pickup some bottled water after my
workout. i also picked up a natural health book...
okay so what is so contradictary about that?
i also spotted 1/2 price peeps and marshmallow
eggs. you know the ones, hard shell, brite happy
colors. I BOUGHT THEM! i had just worked out.

since my new career move of working from home, i
often spout about how more organized i am. the
image above is of my desk this very moment. hmmm....
seems i need to work on those organizational skills.

i am also often annoyed when i see a family or couple
out for a walk and someone in the group is chatting
on their cell phone. or a mom talks about how all the
time in the car going from activity to activity allows
for quality family time and everytime you see her, she
is on her cell phone.

just thinking outloud -

...happy tuesday!

good on friday

{original artwork - clancy and denisha}

no school today...this always seems to create caos
in the household. kids spending the nite. late
bedtimes. we had friends crash at our house last
nite and i ended up going to bed at 2am. so we
have a tired kelly.

tired + kelly = bitchy kelly.

bryce took the kids to meet their aunt this morning.
they will be with the dad for the weekend. after they
left i went into my studio to get a few things done and
like always - the playstation was not put away and clancy
left all my art supplies out. brushes were drying up, paint
everywhere. my new flower stamps full of paint. ughhhh...
can't it be simplier than this? so i called them on the cell
phone to discuss there antics. gabe of course, apologized
the second he got on the phone [he is like eddie haskle],
clancy on the other hand, was her usual defensive self.
not wanting to take on her respondsibility. so next time -
no studio time. maybe i should make my kids pay for
studio time. put down a deposit for use of my studio
and supplies.

the weather is beautiful again today in middle indiana.
sun is shining, walkers passing by. this weather makes
me happy. it is amazing how much i have gotten done
since the weather has warmed up. i am a sucky
winter person.

on this good friday, i am happy about....

-matt's visit today
easter this sunday
-my kick ass week
shoeless feet
-clancy's creation above
hearing gabe's bass from outside
-sitting on the porch swing and my kids coming out to join me
cheri' coming home
-and bryce stepping up and being the kids chauffer

many blessings to all this easter weekend...amen

happy friday!

camo scarf

i have finally finished my camo scarf. in the
comedy of kellys life, today it is 70 degrees
in the ville. such is life. i have come upon
so old vintage earrings. i am going to cut the
clip off and attach a pin back. i will crochet
a large flower and then attach it to the
crystal pin....sweet!

i still have 3 more scarves to finish. maybe this
next year, i can try to move on to some new
patterns.

lifelines

today while visiting my friends smed's
journal on diaryland...i was taken back by
his honest entry. he spilled, gushed and laid
it all out about his respect for his wife, liz.
{scott is in bottom row with the glasses}. i
adore liz and his honest, pretty love letter brought
me to tears. not only because i know these two
personally, but it is how i feel about my "b". he
is my light, rock and the big oak of this family.
there are times that i am so mad at him, i want
to scream and all he has to do is give me one
look and i have to hide my face so he won't see
me smile.

pictured above are also a few others who are our
lifelines. the guy in the sombrero...that is jeff. we
celebrated his 50th last friday nite at our local
and very tasty - mexican restaurant. the margaritas
are damn good too! i have known jeff for 20 years.
he sends all of us birthday cards every year. EVERY
YEAR! not just me and bryce, but all three of our
kids. and not just our family...EVERY ONE in our
family of friends....AMAZING! and then there is
pete and becky....whitey and leslie [they're my
in-laws.] he's the one with the $$$ and she is
wearing the glasses. of course i can't leave out
tom and heather. she's my partner in crime
and can sing a mean copacabana. there is
brent, greggie, amy, tank, steve and marty

these are our lifelines....some days i wish we had
friends who had friends with older kids, or more
friends from church and i wish i felt more trusting
towards people associated with bryce's job. but
at the end of the day when i lay my head next to
bryce...i am thankful for these lifelines. they have
blessed me with friendship, laughter...lot's of laughter,
theme party's, shoulder's to cry on. they are
my pep session in life.

amen.

happy tuesday...

summer feet

{summer feet}

today is the first day that i have gotten to kick
off my heavy winter worn shoes. no trouser
socks - windows thrown open.

indiana is having a beautiful day. no gray sky,
at least for now. this afternoon we are in for
more wind, rain - storms. but i am taking advantage
as long as i can.

there is a beautiful breeze flowing through my studio.
my house smells of fresh sheets in the summer.
the sun is warm and i am happy.

looking at my feet, i realize that they still show the
remains of last summers tan. they are in need of
a relaxing pedicure. but for today, they are free
of the stiffling socks and shoes. and they are very
happy with the fresh coat of polish.

enjoy your day!

just plain happy

{new mixed media in process}

happy about....

gracie gasaway has arrived!
lunch at brix with my sister
getting back to painting
spring break
this sunny day
organizing the studio
my new [the container store] catalog
listening to bob marley and matt costa
opened windows
ice tea

amen!