she blooms....SOLD!
miz marisa of creative thursday
has tagged me in a "secret's of
dealing with adversity" podocast.
yesterday i had all these ideas and thoughts that i was going
to share. but this afternoon...
i got a strong dose of displeasure
and it made me take a more
honest look at how i deal with
unpleasant issues.
first let me say, i am a scorpio...
i am passionate, loyal and extremely
jealous in nature. i hate the jealous
one, i truly do. i am also moody.
so when i have to deal with one of
life's curve balls, some days, i am
pretty much embarrassed by what
transpires. i end up with a pouty
attitude, i slip into the woe is me
syndrome and why is this dark
cloud hanging over my head. now
i will say that these less than attractive
ways are generally saved back for
bad haircuts, leaky faucets/pipes and
lemon cars. if we have a major health
issue, family/friend emergency, then
i can step up and say this is life and we
will make it through. for me, my unattractive
dealings tend to be when it has to do withme
personally. i do tend to suffer from low
self esteem, but as i get older, it last much
shorter spurts, of the woes. and in the creative
world, the less you take to heart the better.
i learned in college to take critiques and a
positive step, even the ugly ones. it is only
helpful to listen to feedback and use it in a
positive manner. please... for those of you reading
this and know me personallyyou don't need to
remind me of my short comings in this dept. i do
realize i am not 100%....but who is.
at the age of 21 i gave birth to a beautiful baby
girl. not only was i not married, but she was
bi-racial. recently a dear friend reminded me
of my courage and strength that i used while
raising her in a lilly white world. what most
people considered an adverse situation, i
considered only one thing, she was a godfilled
blessing, she was born -as we all are-
for a purpose.
2 years ago, i took a huge leap and some days
a huge pay cut, to start my little freelance studio.
in a career driven world....i take this as another
god filled blessing, that i am able to create on a
daily basis and get to be a full time mom to my kids,
who are proud of me. on days when checks aren't
coming in, i remind myself on the fact that - this is
my gift in life.
and most current days, when life shoves something
seemingly unpleasant at me - i instantly think of
henry tucker and caroline harmon. if you take time
to think of what others are dealing with, our own
adversity doesn't really seem like adversity. of
course, i am not perfect, like i said i am a scorpio...
i have to work at this!
on a happy note, today [she blooms] sold. it was
really hard to part with her. she was my first
true "the girl" piece. i didn't like her at first, but
when i hung her on the hallway wall, next to the
studio, i fell in love, so when the buyer showed
interest i had to really suck it up and let her go.
but she has found a fun place to hang with a pretty
funky chick who carries warhol train bags....
see each thing that we meet in life is just a simple
lesson, a blessing and eventhough at the moment
- it may not seem to be, it is just that.
holy crapola...i just realized that i didn't tell you
what my strong dose was today! bryce suggested
that we go to the mac store to finally purchase a
laptop. yes, i am a designer and i live without a
laptop. so we toodled over to keystone at the crossing,
to give a look see. as we entered the doors, i looked and
bryce and said" what the hell is this". lawn chairs
strategically positioned in three straight rows and a
security guard. IPHONE....people sitting waiting for a
$600 phone. and then the bad news. mac store closed
for 4 hours to prepare for phone sales and then when
the reopen tonight, only phone sales...the wind left my
soul for a quick moment. as bryce laughed, i could
envision myself kicking him in the shins. so now i am
laughing about the lunacy of it all. at the moment,
i played the part of the victim, which i seem to do with
such grace! like veruca salt said.... "but daddy i want
it now!"
what is your secret?
