the weigh in

after reading so many blogs talking about
spring renewal, personal worth, weight gain -
it has made me want to start fresh....yet again.

i guess that is life in a nut shell...picking up the
chard pieces of our daily lives and re-working
it when it is necessary.

if only i would take the time each day to do
what is necessary, to take steps so that i am
not continually fixing the leaks and holes
that i have created just by simply not paying
attention.

this past fall i did weight watchers and lost around
12 lbs. and it felt great. and as my 12th week came
i just decided that i needed that thursday evening to
make sure i was with my kids. there was also a
chick there who weighs you in, and everytime i
went up to be weighed, she would make a comment
about how she didn't know why i was there. it
really discouraged me. i was the smallest person
there. but when your next size up jeans need to
be greased before you put them on - then you feel
like you are big, no matter how much you weigh.

so 2 months ago i bought the new windsor pilates
with the resistant circle. okay that was all good,
it only took me 2 months of looking at it sitting in
front of the tv to decide - the hole needed to
be plugged!

so...i officially started monday. yes we must always
begin on the monday. tonight i went to the school
to do my cardio, so i weighed in. for the love of
god....why does every scale in the world weigh me
in at 10lbs more then my scale. looking at my
weight watchers booklet...i have gained back 8 of
the 12 i took off in the fall. thank you lord it wasn't
all 12, then i might have had to shoot myself [only joking].
my bathroom scales will be adjusted accordingly.

i have realized that i have gained almost 27lbs since
bryce and i got married 6 years ago. bryce on the
other hand has stayed skinny. but he doesn't eat
cheese fries and peanut m&m's either.

i have been enjoying the pilates. i love the stretching.
so i am taking my measurements and documenting them
tonight and in thirty days, i will check them again.
bye bye cheese fries!

on a creative note...i went to a new art coop opening
and even though most of the art was not to my taste...
seeing the artists and talking with them filled me with
such energy. i love going from studio to studio and listening
to each one, eyes wide open with such a love, such
creative force.

this place is a big daisy in a field of weeds. it sits
in the middle of a very itty bitty town and because
of the dedication of a few creative residents - a dream
has become.

happy to be.....

married to a blessed man who loves me even though
i am guirky and roly poly

in the middle of a big creative mess

the mommy to 3 beautiful, funny, warped, head strong cherubs

on the best street in town

asked to help out

healthy

so blessed...even though sometimes it slips my mind

contradictions

{a very messy desk}

i am always bewildered by all the contradictions
that we see daily. today while pulling out of the
cvs parking lot. i watched a young mother
riding a bike with a child cart in tow....she was
smoking a cigarette as she steered her toddler
down the street. as i smirked to myself, i realized
that i am not immune to these contradictions. i went
to cvs to pickup some bottled water after my
workout. i also picked up a natural health book...
okay so what is so contradictary about that?
i also spotted 1/2 price peeps and marshmallow
eggs. you know the ones, hard shell, brite happy
colors. I BOUGHT THEM! i had just worked out.

since my new career move of working from home, i
often spout about how more organized i am. the
image above is of my desk this very moment. hmmm....
seems i need to work on those organizational skills.

i am also often annoyed when i see a family or couple
out for a walk and someone in the group is chatting
on their cell phone. or a mom talks about how all the
time in the car going from activity to activity allows
for quality family time and everytime you see her, she
is on her cell phone.

just thinking outloud -

...happy tuesday!

good on friday

{original artwork - clancy and denisha}

no school today...this always seems to create caos
in the household. kids spending the nite. late
bedtimes. we had friends crash at our house last
nite and i ended up going to bed at 2am. so we
have a tired kelly.

tired + kelly = bitchy kelly.

bryce took the kids to meet their aunt this morning.
they will be with the dad for the weekend. after they
left i went into my studio to get a few things done and
like always - the playstation was not put away and clancy
left all my art supplies out. brushes were drying up, paint
everywhere. my new flower stamps full of paint. ughhhh...
can't it be simplier than this? so i called them on the cell
phone to discuss there antics. gabe of course, apologized
the second he got on the phone [he is like eddie haskle],
clancy on the other hand, was her usual defensive self.
not wanting to take on her respondsibility. so next time -
no studio time. maybe i should make my kids pay for
studio time. put down a deposit for use of my studio
and supplies.

the weather is beautiful again today in middle indiana.
sun is shining, walkers passing by. this weather makes
me happy. it is amazing how much i have gotten done
since the weather has warmed up. i am a sucky
winter person.

on this good friday, i am happy about....

-matt's visit today
easter this sunday
-my kick ass week
shoeless feet
-clancy's creation above
hearing gabe's bass from outside
-sitting on the porch swing and my kids coming out to join me
cheri' coming home
-and bryce stepping up and being the kids chauffer

many blessings to all this easter weekend...amen

happy friday!

camo scarf

i have finally finished my camo scarf. in the
comedy of kellys life, today it is 70 degrees
in the ville. such is life. i have come upon
so old vintage earrings. i am going to cut the
clip off and attach a pin back. i will crochet
a large flower and then attach it to the
crystal pin....sweet!

i still have 3 more scarves to finish. maybe this
next year, i can try to move on to some new
patterns.

lifelines

today while visiting my friends smed's
journal on diaryland...i was taken back by
his honest entry. he spilled, gushed and laid
it all out about his respect for his wife, liz.
{scott is in bottom row with the glasses}. i
adore liz and his honest, pretty love letter brought
me to tears. not only because i know these two
personally, but it is how i feel about my "b". he
is my light, rock and the big oak of this family.
there are times that i am so mad at him, i want
to scream and all he has to do is give me one
look and i have to hide my face so he won't see
me smile.

pictured above are also a few others who are our
lifelines. the guy in the sombrero...that is jeff. we
celebrated his 50th last friday nite at our local
and very tasty - mexican restaurant. the margaritas
are damn good too! i have known jeff for 20 years.
he sends all of us birthday cards every year. EVERY
YEAR! not just me and bryce, but all three of our
kids. and not just our family...EVERY ONE in our
family of friends....AMAZING! and then there is
pete and becky....whitey and leslie [they're my
in-laws.] he's the one with the $$$ and she is
wearing the glasses. of course i can't leave out
tom and heather. she's my partner in crime
and can sing a mean copacabana. there is
brent, greggie, amy, tank, steve and marty

these are our lifelines....some days i wish we had
friends who had friends with older kids, or more
friends from church and i wish i felt more trusting
towards people associated with bryce's job. but
at the end of the day when i lay my head next to
bryce...i am thankful for these lifelines. they have
blessed me with friendship, laughter...lot's of laughter,
theme party's, shoulder's to cry on. they are
my pep session in life.

amen.

happy tuesday...

summer feet

{summer feet}

today is the first day that i have gotten to kick
off my heavy winter worn shoes. no trouser
socks - windows thrown open.

indiana is having a beautiful day. no gray sky,
at least for now. this afternoon we are in for
more wind, rain - storms. but i am taking advantage
as long as i can.

there is a beautiful breeze flowing through my studio.
my house smells of fresh sheets in the summer.
the sun is warm and i am happy.

looking at my feet, i realize that they still show the
remains of last summers tan. they are in need of
a relaxing pedicure. but for today, they are free
of the stiffling socks and shoes. and they are very
happy with the fresh coat of polish.

enjoy your day!

just plain happy

{new mixed media in process}

happy about....

gracie gasaway has arrived!
lunch at brix with my sister
getting back to painting
spring break
this sunny day
organizing the studio
my new [the container store] catalog
listening to bob marley and matt costa
opened windows
ice tea

amen!

sweet baby tees

sweet baby tees
Originally uploaded by indigochickie.

ohhhh....i just got these in the
mail yesterday from the oh so
talented lori joy smith. check
her out here - www.lorijoysmith.com
she is really sweet too!

they are going to my new niece
or nephew. our dear friends hutch
and sarah expecting in the fall too.
and our varsity basketball coach and
his wife, due in may!

oh the blessings!

happy thursday!

they say it's your birthday...

oh miz clancyface, today you move
into the world of the older girlies....
but you have been there since the
day you were born. you were going
to be molly, until your cousin was born
12 hours before and she beat you to
to punch...so you got to go with clancy
our very own bit of irish

always wanting more, living out loud
and rarely taking no for an answer.

you love being smack dab in the middle
of it all. you feel deeply like me and
you love to live life. you are pouty, moody,
caring, and can sing sing sing.

your hair stood on end from the day you
came into the world till the day you were
baptized. it was a divine intervention of the
hair. i mean really, how long could you take
being referred to as woodstock.

born the day before st. paddys day and always
having to share the birthday glory with miz molly,
you have been a huge brite light in all of our lives
and somedays your spirit needs to be reigned just
an itty bitty bit. but i cherish the days i can hear
you singing gospel in the shower, watching you
defend the little man and watching you work to
accomplish whatever it has been that you believe.

clancy the chick who never gives up or gives in...
may your day be filled with laughter and many
suprises and blessings.

holy shit!

these blissful books have all been purchased
in the past 6 months. i have yet to sit down
and read them. oh, i have scimmed through
the majority of them. but i have all this inspiration
at my finger tips and i can't seem to schedule
in reading time. not only that, i am realizing that
i am addicted to books, as i am addicted to art
supplies. i have no problem going out and buying
150.00 worth of paints, metals, beads, canvas -
but to go out and buy myself clothes...holy
shit - no way! books and art supplies fit, no matter
what! and i can get more for my money, and they
make me happy...oh so gleefully happy. how do
all of you fit your creative time into your schedules.
i have realized that i seem tied to my computer, if i am
not laying out designs, i am checking emails, blogs,
artistic sites for inspiration. i am going to have to
schedule my life and be strict about it! i say yes to
to many things that take me away from what i love
most[next to my cherubs].. sure i can do that.
"oh, you need that layed out?" oh let me do it, it
will be faster. and before i can even say
"Holy New Year's Eve, he has me in his famous trick streamers!"
another whole week has sped past me and i still haven't
gotten to my painting. so please, please, please leave
me your advice....i would so love you for the kindness.

check out michelle today....i dig her post
and she looks really sassy with the pink flower in
her hair!

blessings

{photo taken by my pops....ireland

i am still here, busy with work
happy thursday to each of you!

oh the blessings...

my wee visitor being an good boy all week,
not one cry or one melt down...yea!

figuring out a design short cut while
working on the site map...holy yea!

b coming home and telling me he thought
of me all day...swoon

gabe's second in the 100 breast...cut another 2secs

clancy's bball win

seeing cheri' tonight

dinner at marvin's....home of the gcb

viewing all of swirly's new girl series...oh so sassy

stewie [gabe's leopard gecko] seems to be getting
healthy again.

my 10x10 wood slaps just waiting to feed on some
gesso.

amen....

happy thursday, ya'll

steppin' away

the lovely and oh so talented mati doodled this on my
envelope that her prints came in...check her stuff out here
i dig this doodle!

a great big hug to each of you this week.
lain...thanks for the silly comment...you
are so sweet and you made my day.

i have such a busy week. we have a little visitor
for the week, while his mom and dad are vacationing.
i am in the middle of a large site map, revising
a website and i have a sign to put together.

today while attending mass, fr. dave pointed out
things to think about during this lenten season.
he talked about things that control our personal
freedom; anger, technology, envy, jealousy, etc-
etc-etc....all of those things control my everyday.
and so this week, i am going to work hard on my
design jobs, my paintings and my little visitor. i
also know that i have been allowing myself to sink
deep into the world of envy. i have to tell you all
that my life freelancing couldn't be happier. i love
being at home when my kids get off the bus. i am
blessed to be able to take off a day if i want or need
to. but i still wake up everyday and begin to compare
myself to so many others. if i could change anything
about myself - this would be the thing to change.
and so, through lent, i will be working on personal
inventory. the homily today was so beautiful and
i left church knowing that god was speaking to me.

i am going to be up late tonight playing catch up.
i wanted to have a large portion of the map done
by the end of the weekend, but as always, i allowed
too many outside influences, control my schedule.
and so since i play on the internet way too much...
sorry but you chicks are so inspiring i have a hard
time staying away...i need to step away and get
some work done.

blessing throughout the week...

studio friday...inspiration

i am inspired daily by....

my sphere of happy...see above
this guy and this one too
color, color and more color
the marshmallow guy...i want his job!
pretty sparkilie necklaces
kids art
funky fabric
gabe's first place [400 relay]last nite
clancy's german chocolate brownies
this puppy
swirly, penelope and so many
others of the chickies i checkout
daily...just check out my links
El Conquestador
and lil'mac

happy thursday...

studio friday {something old.....}

something old, something new,
something borrowed, something blue

a. blue - my handy blue clipboard. one of my favorite bargains
b. new - purchases for my painting. i got all these on a trip
last friday. there is a happy shop called {archivers} on
the southside of indy. i am not into scrapbooking, but
this place is full of great mixed media finds. i could have
shopped there all day. i also found some fun little magnets
in the dollar bin at target.
c. old - my trust old brushes. i just can't part with any of them!
d. borrowed - time. i feel like i am always on borrowed time. making
time up here and there.

have a great monday!

happy tuesday

{layers of sketches on tracing paper}

happy TUESDAY to all. what a
great long weekend we had. the
kids were gone. saturday, b and
worked the boys swim sectional and
chs came out on top by 8 points...WHEW
that was close. the boys threw b in
and i had to bring him a change of clothes.
it was so cold, he would have been a
BIG popsicle if he had come home wet.
we went to dinner and the came home
threw on our jammies and were in bed
by 8pm. true BLISS it was!

i am quoting on a new job....HUGE job. well
considering i have gone a month without
steady jobs coming in...it is huge to me.

the sketches ABOVE are what you can find
strewn all throughtout my studio. i am always
AMAZED at what i find laying around. i have sketches
doodles, and notes on all TYPES of papers. i find
them on invoices, job sheets, scraps of paper.
do you do this? i just BOUGHT sheet protectors, so
that i can START organizing my doodles! i just need
to be able to keep track of them.

if you are looking for something to get your CREATIVE
juices flowing or if you just want to hang with some
really HAPPY girlies....check this out. melanie and misty
have started a new creative fest! JOIN in and have some
fun.

need to get to work, get a workout in and then off
to get my tresses worked on!

happy tueday!

studio friday {poison}

what's my poison.....

face and hair ~ aveeda
cappucino ~ 2 every morn
beer ~ red stripe, rock bottom wheat, yuengling
food ~ mexican
sodie ~ diet pepsi
candy ~ black licorice and chocolate
art supplies ~ well duh....any art supplies
food ~ mexican
company ~ a quiet night with bryce and good friends.

if you want to checkout other's poison, stop by
studio fridays and say hello

thebug

here is where i am at this morning.... i feel just plain crappy

my eyes are burning, my head is achey and i just
want to go to bed and pull the covers over my
head. [sorry about the bad rhymn...not intentional.]
i have the "incredible shrinking eyes" syndrome.
the older i get, the smaller my eyes get and my
annoying allergies don't help in this matter.

we have a bug in our house. he has been
visiting for a few weeks. nothing major, but
he is here lurking and jumping back and forth
between the 4 of us. the can of lysol is coming
out!

this is what i want to look like, i want some
energy, i want this headache to go away. i am
crabby and tired. so that is where i am at today.
i think i will work on my new mixed media piece
and finish that up. that will make me feel better.

on another note...look at that my bitchin' superhero
necklace! isn't she pretty. it makes me happy
to wear her.

thankful on thursday....

seeing the jack johnson video this morning
laughing about sticking my foot in it with my old boss
my warm striped blanket wrapped around me
dove chocolates
giggling with gabe and clancy this a.m.
looking over at my new collage

the phone message from swirly that i can't erase
and listen to over and over again

my emails from kim, melanie, penelope and tine

very thankful for mac, el conquestador and steph
last nites visit with an old friend
warm showers
my cappuccino machine

...amen
happy thursday

pink and red on tuesday

{valentine atc's} 1st atc trade

happy valentines's day to each and everyone
of you. sending hugs...whopping hugs to all. i am
so blessed to receive the encouragement, support
and laughter from each of you. may this day be
filled with lots of love, friendship, candy hearts
and chocolate.

i dig those necco candy hearts!

happy music for the day....

ben harper ~ beloved one
sarah mclachlan ~ ice cream
al green ~ let's stay together
van morrison ~ brown eyed girl
jimmy buffett ~ come monday
dave matthews band ~lover lay down

happy vd day!

blessings

indiana morning moon

reflecting on all my blessings...

my funny husband
cheri's independence
gabe's silly sense of humor
clancy's singing debut
my wide range of friends
a warm, colorful studio

all the new toys that i have
been able to purchase this
past year...who needs clothes!

my auntie lynne - don't know what i would do without her
my creative artist mind
jimmy buffett - live at fenway
my ole striped blanket wrap
the kind words and encouragement from so many of you

being able to work from home
and getting to be a mom.

what are your blessings.....

fear [studio friday]

{when you hold back on life, LIFE holds back
on you.} MARY MANIN MORRISSEY

FEAR...seems to rule my creative life. i have been
staring at the mixed media piece above for over
two weeks. i have put my taxes on top of it,
books have been placed on top as well. my mess
seems to continually find its spot there. i cleaned
a bit yesterday, i seem to clean up everday. never
finding time to just loose myself in the studio. i
lose myself in the untidyness. i can always find
something else to do. i fear that i am not good
enough. i fear what would happen if i did succeed.
i fear making too much money - not enough money.
that i may gain recognition, yet i yearn for recognition.

i have an unbelievable support system, from all sorts
of walks of life. many i haven't even personally met.
but they are there cheering me on.

i want to feel worthy, i need to believe that this
is what i am meant to do. i have to rise above
the fear.