little miss c

my little miss c is a sick girl.....mono!

in hindsight, i would say that it has been
lingering since around jan 7th when she
came home from her first day back and
had a terrible headache and fell asleep
at 3:30 and slept through the the nite.

in the last couple of weeks she has fallen asleep
after school and had headaches. by this monday
she had a swollen gland that is a huge mass on
the side of her neck. she also has a little
honey and i am hoping he doesnt get it! how
embarrassing. i don't like this teenage dating

at 14, she is growing up. but going in to
check on her and seeing her laying in her
bed full of fever and pain, i just want to lay
with her - my arms around her to make her
feel better. but i know she is burning up and
doesn't want the added heat. so i fill her glass
up with ice and 7up and offer popsicles.

she is quite a peanut. now about 5'6" and a
perfect build, but i worry how much weight she
is losing. i don't want her to find the new loss
attractive and try to maintain that.

at the moment she is in a fitfull sleep. i need
to check on her, but don't want to wake her. the
drs. said to only wake her to have her eat. and
at the present, she has no desire to lift her head
off her pillow.

my kids are generally strong and healthy, and for that
i know i am blessed. but this poor thing is like her mama
and when she gets sick, her glands swell, her joints ache
and her body fights it with big fevers that come and go.

now go hug someone you love! and while i am thinking of
it after listening to our president yesterday, lets all find
something important in our little neck of the world to throw
our energy into and make a difference. maybe something
we aren't especially comfortable with, but needs to be done.
i am thinking about what i can do.



in the windy.

weekend views from chicago.

dinner at ping pong
breakfast at the bongo room
trudging through the snow throughout wicker park
tapas for the first time
authentic mojitos...two!
new found friends and mike who i adore.


dip no. 6

collaboration with miss kiki.

if you would like to see more....skate over this way

*it's wednesday


diamond dust snow falling on our
middle indiana streets this am. it
was breathtaking seeing the twinkling
of the white against the dark sky, on
my early morning drive. if i am going
to have to deal with winter, this is what
i yearn for. pure snow, no mix of rain
or ice....perfect for a day of sledding.

happy wednesday to you.


dippy no.5

reflections on squam....dippy no. 5 with miss kiki

just two girls, in two different lands reflecting on
a grand old time with many other fine chicks and a
few roosters. if you would like to see some more
than follow me...


*may i be i

oh i am having fun today.

oh today is a DAY! here is what has gone on. session with myself
..emails from this chick and this one too
..a call from this sweet girlie
..naming a new painting tomato soup with a cheese toastwich
..feeling good about the new year energy
..wearing true love + mati art

may i be i



i carry your heart with me

i carry it in my heart

i am never without it
anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is
your doing, my darling i fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet
i want no world for beautiful
you are my world, my true and it's
you are whatever a moon has always
meant and whatever a sun will always
sing is you here is the deepest secret
nobody knows

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which
grows higher than the soul can hope or mind
can hide and this is the wonder that's keeping
the stars apart i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart

ee cummings