wednesday, early morn...on my way.

i sat on the plane.....giddy that i was on my way to the woods
of new hampshire. on my way to old and new faces. so happy
that i was sharing a ride with my girls from last year, tracey
sarah. we were the girls of hamilton last year.

my unfinished box from lisa's class. last year i remember
watching lisa - a bit intimidated by her striking beauty.
this year i was blessed to have her as a teacher. and
the best part was, she was wickedly funny and even more
giving in her knowledge and creativity. i sat there saying
to myself....seriously kelly, why do you form an opinion
before it is even validated. i so want to have more classes
with this chick! what a talent and gift s.a.w. has with her
in the mix.

ah....miss hula 70. i have followed her blog for about 2 years and
her short querky bangs are a true love of mine. [ i am chopping mine
soon - hope you don't mind!] her free love approach and giddy
personality wraps around you so fast that all you can do is go along
with it. i am sure she was the one in high school always forging the
way for crazy antics, like dancing on tables and playing spin the bottle!
i am so happy that i have a new contraption to play with.

my third class was with helene. i have never meditated and i didn't
find her white light. but what did happen was even better for me...
i was able to slow down my breathing and the ping pong balls that
reak havoc on my gray matter simply found a resting place and i was
able to simply be in that moment, and rest. i was able to calm some
anger that i have been carrying. not totally letting it go yet....hell
it was a 4 hour class people...i will work on that one, but slowing
it down, validating me and moving on to calm. i will take that
little gift. oh yes i will.

this is sommers...where the girls are,
where the girls played and where the fun
happened. i love the girls of sommers and
i have to admit, the first nite was a bit rough
for me. i missed my roomies from last year
and had a bit of guilt that i didn't stay with them
this year. but i went upstairs to the room that i
was sharing with someone new, sat on my bed,
shed a little tear and then miss georgia came in
and i was all better. two years of loving, fun and kind
roomies. oh yeah...i am one lucky chick.

my girl georgia...need to laugh, curse or just be silly -
georgia is the one!

i have to say friday nite has to go down in the history
books as one of my best nights ever. liz and i walked
down to the dock to find 4 other beauties putting down
a little sheet to rest on, layered with bottles of wine,
crackers and cheese that they had conveniently borrowed
from the rdc dining hall and a candle. we sat out under the
dome of stars on that dock and we were simply girls. there
was some dipping involved, plenty of spirits ingested and
reading of the cards [ who wants to do a tarot reading
and i sat there like a block of ice from the ice house,
at first with this thought running through my mind...if my
mother gets wind of this she will not be happy. i will be
reminded that this is sacreligious and i will go to hell!
that lasted for about 2 seconds and then a quick I LOVE IT!]
it was so safe on that dock. i was among the girls of sommer
and a couple of our adopted chickadees - friday nite on the
dock was simply home.

...and this is me - wickedly happy.

[ this is my 2nd year for s.a.w. - i have to say this. i am blessed
to have had this opportunity in my life. i live in the middle of indiana,
middle of soybeans and cornfields, middle of 3 kids, two dogs and
a husband who works overtime - every day....sundays included. and
until i met some creative souls through blogs, then the big leap
to spend some time and money on me and head out alone to new
hampshires, squam lake - i was a very lonely creative girl. each of
you who have smiled at me on the path, taken my hand as we walked
through the woods, giggled at my silliness on the dock or in the cabins
have made my journey shine like no other day. and maybe you have not
truly been introduced to me, but i have seen you, i have heard
you, i have learned from you. what we have is a bond, a creative
sisterhood...along with a few brothers that ties us all into a neat
sometimes messy little bow. and because of that - i can lay off my
husband a little more about moving me out of this conservative
little burb - and he says thanks a bunch!, me too! ]

peace. out.


gone squamming

squam lake 2008 - rockywold deephaven camp.

[ the exciting qualities you see in others also exist
in you. you may not be able to see your potential,
but it's there and it is enormous. ~edge keynote]


i will see you there, and if you aren't going this time round - i will
miss you, and if you have never seen your enormous potential and
don't dare go to a retreat like this - then seek that potential, hold
on to it, then give that gift to you.

be back in a week!

peace out.



the hamilton....home. - squam lake 2008

so much has been going on here. i feel like i have been

thrown into a cyclone. last weekend was such a crazy
one, filled with plenty of goodness and memories, but it
is funny how all that goodness can throw me into a weird space
in life. i had an odd few days, of dealing with some emotions
that were brought up. and it is hard to go into it without sounding
like a giddy girl, so lets just leave it at that. - right - concentrating goodness. i have had plenty
so here is a little look into my window for the week.

1. in just 6 sleeps....i am heading back to meet up with so many
that i adore and can't wait to sit on the dock with, sipping some
cool drink.

2. tomorrow is the gallery opening for the "vision of squam"
i have a couple of pieces in the hop on over to
the artstream gallery and check it out. susan schwake and
liz kalloch have been so kind to all of us.

3. and with the squam show - susan schwake is doing interviews
with some of the artists. you can check mine out here!

4. i have some new items heading to squam with me for the
art fair. liz kalloch and i are sharing a table. plenty of goodness
there, so please stop by and said hello if you are there!

5. and last but never boy has officially reached
manhood. no no....just the ripe old age of 18! gabe - is
one of the kindess, caring and funny boys i know. he plays
guitar and sometimes even sits with his mama, strumming
out some coldp
lay while singing the tune. how i love this

please....just stop leaving homework piled at the
bottom of the locker, turn it in for the love of god!

well there you have it....a little bit of goodness and
a whole lot of crazy!


bad fog of lonely

how is it you are around those you love,
friends, kids and you still feel this fog. it weighs
deep on me, causing me to question, wonder and

stages of feeling like you aren't where you
need to be. you have some how missed
out on on specific moments, chances
..moments of lonely

i breathe, breathe so deep that the filling
of my lungs hurt. but i have to go that deep
the breath evens out my pulse, my thoughts
and my mood.

i ask, am i the only one who feels unsettled.
is it that i am so selfish in my wants that i
yearn for more or is it that i haven't reach
my point, my reality, my place where i truly

the unsettled feeling rushes over me, it
pushes me to places i really don't want
to go. that roller-coaster feeling returns,
right as you hit the top, your belly fills
with butterflys and suddenly you feel
queazy and out of control.

i tend to blame the scorpio in me,
i am too fickle, to passionate. and
at the same time, i am happy, i love
my kids, i love my life - and yet this
little voice tells me - you aren't there
yet. a gypsy wandering through the
daily channel.

bad fog.

weekend scenes

one of my favorite chickadees...

happy couple..

wedding flowers..

heading to campus for pictures..


the bearcats

the glory..

the mac daddy..


friday nite frenzy

north montgomery sky - friday night frenzy

here in indiana, every friday nite football is played. and
occasionally an indy news crew comes across the fall
sky, in the glory of a helicopter. it was amazing tonight
to watch the blue and orange crowd as the helicopter
graced the sky.

tonight was a reminder of where i come from, my roots
planted here in middle indiana. rooted deep in this county.
my growth began in 1964 when my parents brought me home
to the little house in new richmond, home of the coal creek
bearcats. my father a teacher and varsity football coach. i grew
up on wooden bleachers, splinters in the arse, let me tell ya!
i grew up to the smell of popcorn and fountain cokes. when
students had a love for their school and respect for those
who taught them. my forth year, the bearcats entered
football season with a perfect record and as they came to
their last game, a perfect season.

tonight that 1969 bearcat team was honored during halftime.
i watched my 73 year old father, walk out on the track with his
assistant coach and family friend of over 40 years by his side.
i watched each player shake his hand, wrap there arms around him
and they still address him as coach. as i stood to the side getting
pictures - i could smell the popcorn, i could smell the locker room
and the 5 gallon bucket full of salt tablets. i was 4 again, riding home
after a game on the gravel road, moths smacking the window as the
breeze came through our open windows. i was 4 again, watching my
dad on the sideline, proud of him. to watch 20 some men, still show respect to
a man that coached them 40 years ago, to still shake hands, i was proud of
the job he did.

bearcat football - 1969 - undefeated.