getting these is the battle.
since my birthday in october, i have been working on a diet. as
much as i hate to call it that, that is exactly what it is. what pulled
me to this specific plan was the "clean" eating. and in the beginning
it was pretty radical. i have cut out sugar, salt and caffeine...and
that was just the beginning. cutting sugar meant no more lattes,
no more dirty hippies, peanut butter m&m's...nada. no salt meant
no longer shaking the salt over my food 3-4 times during he meal
and of course no caffeine also meant cutting out the lattes, diets,
chocolate. all of it. and i did. the first two weeks weren't terrible
but by the end of it, i was literally gagging on lettuce i had had so
many salads. but by week three....the menu opened up a bit
and one of the biggest savers was getting fruit at lunch. so after
2.5 months....today i weighed in and ihave lost 25lbs.
...before i go any further, i just want to say this - i am not looking
for any kudos, or cheers....i put myself in such a bad place with my
eating and my weight, but i am writing this only because i know
there are so many others out there feeling the same way. so if
you are someone who is down on yourself because you feel you
are too heavy, or you feel tired and unmotivated - you can do it to.
i was at the point where just a drive down the street meant me
sitting in the car very upset because as we drove, my belly jiggled.
i had quit all exercise because i had no energy and i hated feeling
my flabbyness in constant motion. i was so self conscience, that i
found myself always tugging on my shirts to make sure they were
pulled down over my waist band. and most would say...kelly you
really aren't that heavy....well yes i was. since bryce and i got
married over 9 years ago - i had gained over 40lbs. for someone
who is 5'3.5 - that is way too much extra weight and the worse
part was i would eat so many high carbs and sugar, that i would
literally crash almost daily. it wasn't healthy and i had begun to
hate myself because of it.
i have 5 weeks left before i work on the stabiliazation period
and 10 more lbs to go. i still will be keeping sugars, salts
and caffeine out of my diet. my goal is to never put myself
back into that bad place....will i eat sugar again...sure
i already have. i allow myself a spoon of ice cream, i have
nibbled on a french fry. because that just isn't in my reality
never to have those things. but what is in my reality is that
i feel the best i have since we got married. when i run on the
treadmill now, my stomach isn't in the way, i can run with no
pain...it is glorious.
so...if you are wanting to start, or you are down on yourself
because you have gained more than you are comfortable with
then find what will work for you. you can do it. i sat for over
5 years, feeling worse and worse about myself, refusing to
believe that i could do it. never daring to just pick myself
up and say no more. but after a little over 2 months i have
lost a significant amount of weight. see you can do it - and
in a short amount of time, in a very healthy manner.